Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Just Sayin'

This is one of my favorite phrases and I am giddy when I get to use it!

Today, I came to campus early to study before my test. (you see how well that's going.) I drank a full mug of coffee to be fully alert come test time, so as you can imagine, my bladder was full by the time I had hiked my mile to campus from my car. (I refuse to pay $2oo, maybe more on a parking pass.)

I entered the building and found a bathroom. There was a sign on the men's bathroom that said closed for cleaning, but the women's had no sign and there was a woman leaving it when I walked in.

I made it to the stall and during this process, I hear a man (boy) yell housekeeping through the door. I said, quite clearly, "someone's in here." Then he proceeded to turn off the lights. I sat there and said again, "someone's in here."

I finished and washed my hands, walked out the door and some blonde headed kid who had to have been younger than me, said he had to talk to me.

This denim dressed janitor proceeded to tell me that I obviously saw that they were cleaning and why would I take down the sign where there are other bathrooms in the building.

WAS HE SERIOUS?!

I said, "if you seriously think I took down a sign to use the bathroom, then you have issues and I don't need to be talked to the way you're talking to me. I have no use for a bathroom sign, let alone time to waste on someone who looks like Joe Dirt. Good day sir."

If I see Joe again, we might brawl. Just Sayin'

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Long Time Coming..

So it's been a long time since I've written. I'm being a slacker which is strange because I NEVER slack (yea..right..)

My whole life I've felt stuck. Stuck somewhere I don't want to be. Now, let me clarify...This statement has nothing to do with my son because being with him is EXACTLY where I want to be..let me put it this way..I just thought I'd have more support. Just like my friend Jenna said to me the other day, "when we were in high school, did you ever dream your life would be like this?" I never thought I'd be struggling like I am at the age of 24 and having to move back in with my parents to save money because the one person who is supposed to help me, appreciate me and love me the right way..just doesn't..that person became selfish once his son was born and it's never been fixed, so I had to make a change.

When I say I feel stuck, I mean that there are so many things I want to do and I feel like there are walls closing in on me and telling me I can't do them. I don't have anyone to motivate me. The way anyone in my family 'motivates' anyone else is by yelling at them to get their point across and this is counting Kingston's father. Yes, I understand that I'm not the cleanest person, but I work 2 jobs and take care of my son when I'm not at work..and I'm pretty sure he'd rather me spend time with him than worry about my room being clean.

I feel depressed, anxious and alone a lot of the time, but Kingston makes that all go away. I watch the show Teen Mom and I see myself in (some of) the girls by the way they feel about their kids..granted they're about 5 or 6 years younger than me, and I commend them on being able to be responsible at such a young age. It's even hard for me at the age of 24, but I love doing it. Just because you love doing something doesn't mean it isn't hard.

I ponder my thoughts a lot. There are so many things I want to do before I die. I want to work at David's Bridal, I want to visit Greece, I want to have enough money to go on a vacation EVERY summer!, I want to write a book, I want to matter in the world. Just by typing that last 'want' makes me cry. I don't know why. I just feel stuck. Stuck at paycheck to paycheck jobs because I don't have a degree and even if I did who's to say that the jobs I got would be one that I enjoy. I don't have much time for myself anymore, which sucks, but I make time for Kingston and that's what matters to me. Kingston will be 1 in May and I have had 1 day that his dad took him for about 4 hours so I could get some stuff done around the house and this was AFTER we stopped living together. I want to de-clutter my life. I want to become more organized and maybe if I did those things, I would be able to see these dreams of mine more clearly!

Monday, August 2, 2010

"The time has come, the walrus said, to talk of many things, of shoes and ships and ceiling wax, of cabbages and kings and why the sea is boiling hot and whether pigs have wings."

This quote reminds me of two movies. Harriet the Spy (who I always secretly wanted to be) and Alice in Wonderland. Growing up, I rented Harriet the Spy, Spice World, and every Mary-Kate and Ashley movie ever made from this small movie rental store in Wilmore. I always wanted to be a writer like Harriet, not to make everyone in school hate me, but I wanted to be that creative. She was so independent and interesting. I always wanted to dress just like Mary-Kate in every movie they were in and well I just enjoyed the Spice Girls movie..haha.

I want to write a book, more than I can explain. I also want my degree, be the best mom, win roughly $10,000 from the lottery (which won't happen unless I actually play..lol) to pay bills and have money in savings. These are things I think about on a daily basis and I think I make myself so anxious about all of them, that it eats me alive. I love Kingston more than anything, but I wish I had my life together now that he's here. I wish, for him, that I had my degree and made enough money to give him everything he will ever want. I know God has a plan for me and this was obviously part of his plan and for that I am forever grateful, but I just wanted to be able to provide the way I should for him. I know if I had that job though, I wouldn't be able to start working at the daycare and be with him all day, everyday, so maybe that was the rest of God's plan for now and I know I'll finish my degree soon, but I just feel stuck, living paycheck to paycheck and never being able to get ahead.

I feel somewhat depressed, and have the feeling of having a lot of anxiety because of all these things. I just feel stuck when it comes to my job and parts of my life, but my son sure makes my days and nights so much better! :)

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Things I dont want to forget about Kingston at 2 months!

-He grabs my shirt and/or necklace when he's trying to fall asleep
-He will pull himself up and stand with locked knees when he's holding your fingers
-He grabs his hair when he's sleepy and can't fall asleep
-He SMILES! :)
-He loves his soft UK football
-He chews his fist (prolly trying to suck his thumb)

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Never want to forget, so I'm writing it all down :)

Our little boy got here safe and sound, healthy and beautiful! I wanted to keep a record of my labor and delivery because everyone says you forget it so quick and I don't ever want to forget!

We had gone to the doctor on Tuesday May 11th at 2:20 and they scheduled an induction for me on Friday at 7:30 am. They did an ultrasound to see how big he was and they said he was 8lbs 2 oz. BIG BOY! I had started having contractions, but I just thought it was cramps from being hungry. Later that night Jamal and I went out to eat with Shonda and Boobie at TGI Fridays and I had started having contractions that were about 11 min apart and then 8 min and 6 mins. They kept getting closer and closer. We were eating dinner (at 11pm) and I had my phone out so I could count the contractions on my stopwatch feature. They were 3-7 minutes apart. When we got back to the apartment, the contractions were definitely 3-5 minutes apart, so I called the hospital. They told me to come in and if it was false labor, they would send me home and if not, they'd keep me. So we packed up and made our way to the hospital.

I remember Jamal thought it wasn't real, but I KNEW I was in labor. I had just pre-registered for the hospital on the internet that morning, but their computers were down so I had to fill out a ton of paperwork. I was still having contractions, but they weren't that bad, so we just waited for a nurse to come in and I got into a gown and into the bed. After about 2 hours, I asked if I was staying and they said yes, I was in labor. I was 3 cm when I got to the hospital and within about 2 hours, I was 4 cm and was able to get my epidural. By that time, the contractions were so bad, I NEEDED that epidural! Jamal had to leave the room and they lifted my bed up and my leg was shaking when they stuck the needle in because my contractions were so bad and I was so nervous. Once I got that epidural I was great though. Jamal's mom got there and I texted everyone at 4am when I was 8cm and my mom made her way over. I couldn't breathe around 7 am and they turned my epidural off and turned me on my side, so by the time I started pushing and had him, the epidural had worn off so I felt his head come out. I actually didn't start pushing until about 8:30. I had fallen asleep for about 45 minutes and then the nurse (who was actually the nurse that did our birthing classes) woke me up and I started pushing. It really wasn't that bad until his head started to come out and by that time I was so tired from pushing that I thought I couldn't do it, but I knew I really didn't have a choice. haha. It was just so overwhelming to see this little person come out of you and look at your child and know that nothing in the world can take that title away from you. You have this little person that will love you unconditionally for the rest of your life! My mom was right when she said, "you'll never know how much I love you until you have a child." If it's possible, I think now I love my mom even more too :)

Kingston Thomas Wilkinson
May 12, 2010
7 lbs. 1 oz.
20 1/4 inches

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

The Joys and Frustrations of Working at a Hotel

When you're on vacation and you check into a hotel, do all your human intuitions stay at the door? Do you become so dependent on that front desk worker, that you forgot what it was like to do simple things like connect to the internet or listen when I tell you that breakfast is from 6-10 am? A man called me from his room phone today and told me that his phone wasn't on because he couldn't dial a 1-800 number...........hmmm so sir, if your phone isn't on, how do u suppose you called me? Turns out he was pushing a 9 to dial out instead of an 8 to dial long distance!! MAN!!

The stories I have from working at a hotel get even better!

It KILLS me when someone calls and I answer and say, "Thank you for calling the Hampton Inn Lexington-South, this is Kay, how can I help you." and their response is, "Is this the Hampton Inn?" or "Who did I call?" or "Who's this?" Granted a lot of these responses are from people ages 80 and up, but really??

Another great one is when someone calls and I ask them what dates they were looking to come stay at our property and they say, "Let me get my calender." WHAT?! why didn't you have that ready when you CALLED? You think I can read your mind?

My absolute favorite is when people call and tell me they have to run upstairs to get their credit card......don't you know that you have to have a credit card to hold the room?! wow!

My other favorite is when I have to give directions all the way from I-75. WHY IN THE WORLD DIDN'T YOU MAPQUEST THE SHIT BEFORE YOU GOT ON THE ROAD?!

Man, I love my job, but SOMEtimes, it drives me CRAZY!

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Facebook Posts

Facebook is a wonderful outlet to everyone else's lives and daily hatred or happiness via their statuses. I've had facebook since 2005 and at that point it was only for college students. Now my momma is allowed to have an account, which is not in any way bad, just funny how things change. My only issue with facebook is that when I come across a status that is against my beliefs of Religion, Politics or Kentucky Basketball, I MUST comment. I am a liberal christian who is a huge Kentucky Basketball fan and when someone disses Barack Obama or says that John Wall isn't the BEST player in college basketball (for the 2009-2010 season) then I tend to want to expess my opinions. Luckily I haven't had to say much about the ladder because everyone should know that Kentucky was the best team this year and that Duke and Butler got LUCKY in their fight for the championship. This was such a disappointing year when it came to the NCAA championship. Anyway....I came across a facebook page of a girl I went to high school with (who I have now deleted from my page) who decided it would be appropriate to post a rant as her status talking about how military families won't be under the new health insurance plan...THEN she went on to say how 'all a girl has to do is get knocked up and she can get free insurance, housing, food stamps and college.' This set me OFF! Being a pregnant woman who isn't married, I'd be in debt up to my ears if I didn't have all the government assistance. To get a better idea of how I feel about the subject, I'll post our entire conversation.....


Crystal Davis I just love it how our great president Obama has passed the new Health Care Reform allowing everyone under the age of 26 to be added to their parents insurance except for us Military families!!! I mean come on you stupid idiot! Shouldn't military families come first?! OH but of course all the illegal skums get free food, housing, and health insurance.

Crystal Davis And all these lazy ass Americans who can't get off their fat bums to go make money to support their own damn selves get everything handed to them on a silver platter. OR the fact that all I have to do is get myself knocked up and I can get free college, food stamp card, free health insurance, and housing. What is this country coming to?!! Its just insane. Thank you America, for voting the biggest loser as our president.

Sarah Liese It's pathetic what this country come to. I am with my daughter's father and bc I know who her daddy is I am looked down on. Our president is treating our military as though they don't matter, which in reality if it wasn't for them we wouldn't be a free country.

Crystal Davis Kinda makes you wonder whats going on in his head. He doesn't have any desire to take care of them. Why? Is he against us?!

Sarah Liese I don't know. Military should be a top priority, your family on top of other families are the reason we have the rights we do. Hopefully we will get a better president next time!!!

Kay Howells there are some exceptions to ur second statement..i am pregnant and am on the medical card, i work full time AND go to school part-time and have also just applied for food stamps and you know what? i'm STILL struggling. There's no platter for me..nothing has been handed to me and I'm still surviving, but I'm not where I want to be financially..however, everyday I do something to better myself and try and make a better life for me and my family.

Crystal Davis I wasn't trying to say that pregnant women shouldn't be helped. If I got pregnant I would def need the help too. I was just making a statement about how everyone is helped but military. I also feel that just because I am not pg, doesn't mean I shouldn't get some type of help as well if I needed it. But the gov just doesn't work that way.

Kathy Creighton Davis Sarah 100% right too.
Kay your not lazy - I knew your situation wouldn't be what Crystal speaking about.

Kay Howells but you said clearly that 'all you have to do is get knocked up and you can get free school, healthcare, food, whatever.' that shouldn't be a statment that you use when YOU yourself would benefit from the goverment if you were in my situation..i was with a guy in the army at one time and not saying that the military SHOULDN'T get special treatment...because they do a lot for the country and I have a family full of veterans, however, he was and still is in debt and scammed the army in MANY ways (such as being married to someone just for the money..WHILE he was still with me)..it's not just about the organization or what you do for a living, sometimes it's about the PERSON and what THEY do to better/worsen themselves. i know for a fact that he got a TON of benefits and he made really good money, his child benefits from these things and as long as he's active will have these benefits which i think is wonderful for him and his family, but i'm curious as to what else you think the military needs? I'm not saying that they shouldn't get benefits because they should get every benefit there is for themselves and their families, but everyone chooses their jobs, no one has been drafted (like my dad was in vietnam.) You choose whether or not to be a chef or a housekeeper or construction worker and you also choose to be in the military. Again, I want to stress that I have a lot of family and loved ones that were or are in the military and i applaud them for being so brave in choosing their occupation, but the way i was raised is to always help others in need and never settle for less than you deserve. I agree that people who are illegal immigrants shouldn't receieve benefits because this isn't truly their place of residence, but that's also where you have to put urself in their shoes and understand that sometimes it's about helping others before yourself. As the Bible says..." Whoever is generous to the poor lends to the Lord, and He will repay him for his deed" Proverbs 19:17

Kathy Creighton Davis Military shouldn't get less coverage then anyone else. Yes, it is voluntary and they go way beyond there duty. If you think they make "a lot of money" your wrong - very wrong. You can check out the pay on the web. Also if you divided the pay by the hours they work we would be getting maybe 3 or 3.50 and hour and that's living state side. When ... See Moreour troops are deployed they would be lucky to be making 2.00 or less an hour. People are in the service because they feel it's there calling. The Bible also says "you don't work you don't eat"

Kay Howells i know for a fact that my ex makes more than me..and i make 8.25 an hour. i said he made really good money, not a lot more money. it's a choice, however it wasn't for my dad and he still does well for himself as a retired postal worker. Not all of these men and women who serve work the hours they are supposed too. many days my ex would just come home and sit or just drive around post. jesus said to love one another as i have loved you. do you think Jesus would turn anyone away that was sick or poor just because they weren't able to get a job? or maybe because they AREN'T lazy and no one will give them an opportunity because they don't have enough experience..did anyone ever think of that?

Kathy Creighton Davis Anybody can flip a burger. McDonald's & B.K. hire all the time and best thing about them you work your way up. They even give college $$$$$

Kathy Creighton Davis I don't know what you ex did in the military but I've never heard or seen anyone with an MOS like that. If he was an MP driving around post is part of his job.

Crystal Davis Right on momma. I have mentally challenged people at my work, and down syndrome people. And they do just fine supporting themselves. Some people are just losers.

Kay Howells and anybody can join the army..it's all about choices..i don't flip burgers either..and i know that mcdonalds and burger king dont hand out college scholarships to their workers.

Kay Howells he was not an MP..his MOS was with computers.

Kay Howells if ur in the army, you get college money too..you have a chance to earn your degree and everything

Kathy Creighton Davis Yes, they do have college funds - not sure how it works. I have friends that manage at both. I worked a BK one day during college. Yes, 1 day - I couldn't handle the greassssss. I loved working at the Pizza House - less smell.


I would love for anyone's opinions on this post because it makes me smile how I made them look so dumb..lol. Anyways, that's the extent of this post.

Signing off ;)

Kay